This is me being bored!

As usual on a saturday morning. Im bored. But this saturday, unlike most, i can't get outta the house. Hubby is working on the car for what i believe is the one hundred-thousandth time this year(I hate that car). Anywho. So i decided i would blog about some random crap. Mostly about me, so maybe some people who actualy read this can get to know me a little better. Here goes...

1. I live in Hickville USA...aka Tennessee.
2. I have been married almost 4 yrs. 4 yrs as of january 1st
3. I have two kids. Leigh Ann will be 4 monday and Seth is 2. Also a baby i miscarried over 2 yrs ago.
4. I love the color red. And sometimes blue
5. I have a father, that other than me and my little sis, has over 20 kids. NO JOKE!
6. I have two older brothers, twins, Rick and Mike that i love lots and lots.
7. I haven't seen any of my family, other than my mom, in about 5 yrs
8. My middle name is Ann...I hate it! lol
9. I never finished high school. Got preggo the end of my junior year...and no im not a slut
10. I married the father of my children
11. I hate stupid people
12. I can be bitchy at times, hell most times.
13. I won't drink water unless it has those flavor packets in it
14. I could drink a case of soda by myself if i really wanted to
15. Sometimes i REALLY wish i could run away and start a new
16. I think Tom cruis is a moran
17. I listen to rock music mostly. Like Hinder, Daughtry, Nickleback, Staind, Bon Jovi, Poison
18. I don't have my license.
19. I hated my childhood...it was full of drama and violence
20. I am in love with Dale Earnhart Jr. OMG i would leave hubby for him in a heartbeat! lol
21. I spend most of my free time on the internet
22. I like to watch cartoons. Sometimes even after the kids are asleep
23. I like to drink. My favorite drink is the new Mike's Hard Pomegranate Lemonade...YUM!
24. I hate cleaning. I mean seriously HATE it! So hubby does most of the cleaning for me
25. My kids drive me insane most days. And some days more than others
26. I chew my nails. I stopped when i smoked, but now that i stopped smoking, i find myself chewing my nails again
27. I swear a lot. Hubby calls me his lil sailor. lol
28. I really really dislike my inlaws. Mostly my mother-in-law. She is freaking insane! Literally
29. I am addicted to ghost shows. I like to watch them, but then afterward get scared to death that there are ghosts around me. lmao
30. I love to watch sports
31. My fav pro football team is Indianapolis colts
32. My fav college football team is Oregon Ducks....GO DUCKS! quak quak...lol
33. My fav basketball team is The Portland Trailblazers. They aren't that good. But it's hometeam
34. When i try to get hubby to eat healthy, i slip veggies he doesn't like into things he does like

I had to end on an even number. I don't like odd numbers. Well. Think im done being bored now! lol. Hope you enjoyed this wonderful story of my life. : )

Woohoo My first award! Honest Scrap

My lover face Stephanie gave me an award. I am so honored! I don't even know how to do half this crap! lol. I will do my best. : )

The rules:
1. Write a post about the award.
2. Link back to the person who gave you the award.
3. Then you have to Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4. Add links to those blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message for the nominees on their blogs.
6. Name 10 honest random things about yourself.

Let the good times roll...

1. I have a bit of an OCD thing going on. I will only eat red gummy bears, when i turn the volume up on the radio or tv, it has to be an even number.

2. I don't shave my legs all the time. I forget and won't shave them for sometimes up to a month. lol.

3. I am a pig. My house is a total mess most days.

4. I don't have my drivers license

5. I am a chat addict. I could chat all day and every day if i didn't have other things to do

6. I burp a lot

7. I think i drink way too much, sometimes

8. I do not like my inlaws

9. I wear flip flops almost all year long

10. I go to church, and even though i tell hubby i don't like to go, i really love it. Especially the singing part!

Now it's time for me to nominate some people. But unfortunately i don't have anyone to nominate. So i will have to get back to that part. Thank you Stephanie My STAR [and Wish]

When she was born

Ok so monday is my daughter's bday. She will be 4. This is gonna sound a little cliche, but it seems like just yesterday i was bringing her home from the hospital. She was 3 weeks early. I went in for a regular doctors visit and they couldn't find her heartbeat and she wasn't moving around like usual. So they sent me to the hospital next door for a nonstress test. After about an house being in the hospital hooked up to tons of monitors, my obgyn came in dressed in scrubs and informed hubby, actualy fiance at the time, that within the hour our little girl would be here. So we both began to freak out a little. Kevin ran and started making calls to family and friends telling them what was up. While kevin was gone my nurse came in with the anethesiologist and got me nice and drugged. By this time i am still pretty calm. I was just excited to finaly meet my little girl. When Kevin got back to the room he was tossed a set of scrubs and off we went. I saw my mom and step dad on my way to the operating room. My mom was freaked. She kept saying she was gonna pray for me and the baby and that i shouldn't worry all was gonna be good. I was fine. I wasn't worrying what-so-ever. Finaly we got to the OR. I don't remember much about what all went on there. I remember laying there with Kevin holding my hand. Then it got hard to breath and i felt a lot of pressure. The last thing i remember was Keving telling me that he loves me. And i was out. I woke up about an hour later and Kevin was of course by my side. I was in pain. Well sort of. I was still pretty much out of it. I knew that i had had my daughter, and that i had just been cut into like a damn steak. But other than that, i was in another world. My mom and step dad, as well as my inlaws, came by to visit me and congradulate me. So after all the kissy kissy, i love you and thank-you junk, Kevin and i were finaly alone again. I got moved into my room and the night went pretty well. I wasn't able to see Leigh Ann(that is what we named her) since she was under the heat lamp and on sugar IV's, since she was 3 weeks early. Oddly enough i wasn't too concerned about my little girl. I was, but i wasn't. I had a pretty bad case of PPD(post partum depression). I wanted nothing to do with my daughter the whole first night and the next day. The only reason i went to go see her in the first place was because Kevin was begging me to and my doctor said i wasn't going to be able to go home until i went to see her. So reluctantly i went to the nursery. I sat next to her and looked out the window to see the amazing ice storm that had taken place the same night i had my daughter. It was nothing i had ever seen before. The trees were covered in thick ice and the i could see the roads so icy that it looked impossible to drive on them. The lactation cunsultant asked me to try and nurse Leigh Ann. So i did just that, try. I held her and i did what all your supposed to do while nursing a baby. But she wanted nothing to do with me or my boobs. And for someone who was already in a fragile mental state, that sent me over the top. I began to cry and went back to my room. A few hours later i decided to go back to the nursery and see my baby. This time i was able to give her her first bath. It was so fun and she looked so cute all wet. And that cry she had was so quiet and cute. I went back to my room, Leigh Ann wasn't able to leave the nursery yet. The next day i was given the go ahead to go home. As soon as Leigh Ann was checked out by her pediatrician and given her shots, we were ok to go home. The scary thing was, that the roads out were still so icy and slick. We got home safely. But we did have an incident on our way home. We were going down this slight hill and all of a sudden Kevin looked at me and told me to hold on. The car began to slide for what seemed like forever, but it was only 5 seconds. Luckily there were no cars coming from the opposite side. Though there were a few cars in the ditch. lol. And here it is almost 4 years later. My little girl is now a bigger girl. And as much as i am glad that she is growing and learning and becoming her own little self, i hate it too. I miss that little baby girl that i use to rock to sleep and sing to. Now i need to remember the good times we had and focus on making more good times in the future!

Letter to my grandmother

Dear Mamaw,

Hey mamaw. It's me, you favorite grand-daughter. : ) I thought i would do something a little different this year. It has been 5 yrs since you passed. And i miss you as much today as i did the day you were sent to heaven. You were the first person i told i was pregnant with Leigh Ann. Not sure if you remember, you were so sick when i saw you. Im sorry that i didn't stay longer with you. But in all honesty, i didn't even know who you were. That person laying in the hospital bed in the middle of the living room was not the mamaw that i grew up admiring. That was a shell of a woman that i once knew. I told you how much i loved you and what you had meant to me all my life. And that i would never forget the wonderful times we had together. And i meant every word of that. I tell my children as much as possible about their great-grandmother in heaven. It hurts me to know that they never got the opportunity to get to know you like i did. Mamaw you were my rock. You kept me going when all i wanted to do was crawl under a rock and forget about the world. I remember how much you loved it when i sang Patsy Cline's music. You would get to tapping your toes and snapping your fingers. Always brings a smile to my face when i hear or sing patsy cline. I know that you were with me the day that i miscarried my baby. I remember right before they put me under, hearing your voice telling me it would be alright. I woke up asking for you. Even though i knew good and well that you weren't there. At least not in the physical sense. But i could feel you there. I know that my baby is in heaven with you. And as much as losing a baby is a terrible thing, i know that he or she, is in good hands. It seems as though the holidays are especialy hard for me without you. I remember all the wonderful food that you would cook and i really loved your pies and cakes. : ) Holiday's just aren't the same without you. Mamaw i just miss you so much. I talk to you all the time. Sometimes i will just look up and talk to the sky, with hopes that you are listening. And im sure you are. I laugh, i cry, sometimes even yell. It is just frustrating knowing that you are no longer here with me. Even after 5 yrs and it still makes me a little angry. I don't see the anger leaving anytime soon. Well mamaw. It was nice chatting with you again. Thank you for being my rock. I love you with all my heart.

Love you always, Alicia

Drama! Drama! Drama!

As usual around this time of year i've got some drama going on. My MIL is a good person, for the most part, but her and my mom seem to always be competing. Im not sure if it is competing, or just plain stupidity! Don't get me wrong, i love both my MIL and my momma, but they tend to make me and hubby dread the holidays! My MIL is always so indecisive about when she is going to have her holiday dinners. And my mom hates the fact that she can't make plans until MIL gets her plans straight. Last year was the worst it has ever been. My MIL was going to have her thanksgiving dinner on thanksgiving, so i told my mom, so she could have hers the following day. Well 3 days before thanksgiving my MIL changed her mind and wanted to have it the day after thanksgiving. When i told my mom she was so mad. I was mad too, but she took it to a whole other level of madness. She had been drinking, so that may have helped to fuel her fire. She, in front of my kids, began calling my MIL every name under the sun and a whole lot more. Her and i got into it for the simple fact that she was being mean and disrespectful of my MIL in front of my kids. It got worse from there. I said some things, she said some more things...blah blah blah. Her and i didn't talk for days. Then when i tried to contact her, she would hang up on me. Which of course made me mad. Christmas came around and when we went to my moms house for the kids gifts, my mom was stone cold drunk. I was so so mad! Then to top it off, she tried to kiss hubby. lol. Yeah i about knocked her out. Had it not been my mom i would have! lol. So we left and it was mid january before my mom and i talked.
So today my step dad called me asking what was going on for christmas. I told him i didn't know and that it was sorta up in the air as of now. He of course took that as my MIL hadn't decided yet. And began saying things like, "Well we aren't gonna have another repeat of next year and i hope she don't f*ck things up again." I had to bite my tongue. The last thing i want is another repeat of next year! Ugh...I think hubby, the kids and I need to just do our own thing for once. It is drama free that way.

My GOOD friend...(LOVEY...READ!)

From day one this person and i have been pretty close. She and i know each other pretty well. Yeah she lives far away and i have never met her in real life, but she is the coolest and most wonderful woman i know! She goes through a lot of hard times in her personal life, and i hate all the crap she is going through. I met her on a mom site and we hit it off immediately! She might think i am silly for bloggin about her, but she is a woman worth blogging about! Stephanie Esposito...You are awesome! And i thank you for being my GOOD friend! Much <3<3<3<3!

Super wonderful news!

About 20 minutes hubby called me while on break. He is at work, as usual. Well Kevin told me that he was told today that he is this month's Employee Of The Month! How awesome is that?! Not to mention the title of employee of the month, he will also have his picture published in the Monthly "paper" that the factory sends out to the employees and their families. Also...he got a $100.00 walmart gift card! I mean how freakin awesome is that?! Just in time for the holidays too! It is about time they recognize the one employee who busts his ass to make up for all the other employees lack of work ethic! My husband has been working at the same place for almost 3 years. Actualy 3 years exactly the 21st of this month. All of his bosses have told him as well as myself that he is the best employee that they have. Often times he can't take his much deserved time off because no one else wants to come in to work. I just want to know what the heck took so long to bestow this momentos achievement upon my wonderful husband?! Oh well...all that really matters is that he got what he so deserves! About damn time too! lol. Im so excited for him. I think im more excited than he is. hahaha. Im gonna make him a giant dinner tonight when he gets home from work. Just to let him know how very proud i am of him! Better get to planning that!!!!