Just remembering...

Yeah. So i know i haven't been blogging much lately. I have just been so busy with hubby being off work the last 3 weeks. Finally he went back this week. But since he went back i have been having to deal with the kids and them wanting daddy all day and night. Well, the holidays were hard for the family this last year. It was the first Christmas without Papa. It was also the first anniversary Kevin and i celebrated without Papa. Papa is Kevin's grandfather who passed away in June. Papa was a preacher. A damn good one in fact! lol. Let me set the seen for you: Januray 1st, 2005, at approximately 3 pm, Nanny and Papa came over to our house. Leigh Ann, our week old baby girl, was crying in the living room. She was ok, just wanted to be held. Anywho. Standing in the Kitchen in my sweat pants and tshirt, all of which was actually Kevin's. I was loaded on pain meds from my recent csection. Hadn't showered in the last week or so, my hair was all oily and messy. No makeup, no lookin good. lol. Kevin was wearing his jeans(the ones that make his butt look super sexy), a tshirt, and his red wing boots. He had just showered that morning. And boy was i jealous! lol. There in the kitchen we stood, Papa preaching from the good book about things that related to a loving marriage, still to this day i have no idea what all he said. lol. I just remember looking over at my wonderful husband as he looked at me with those amazing eyes and told me "I Do". I heard Leigh Ann screaming in the living room. Then it was my turn. I looked over at Kevin and told him, in a drug induced world, " I Do too, now can we get the kid? She is giving me a headache. " lol. Papa signed the marriage certificate, and Nanny signed it as a witness. Every year on our anniversary we would go see Nanny and Papa. This year we didn't. It was too much to handle. Most people want big, extravagant weddings, worth thousands of dollars. But the wedding we had was just perfect. Kevin and i were talking last year about renewing our vows. I was all for it, i wanted to do it so that the kids could be part of the ceremony. I also wanted to do it because i wanted Papa to be our preacher again. But his unexpected death last year threw a wrench into things. I'm not sure we will ever renew our vows. It just wouldn't be the same without Papa being there to tell us to repeat the words after him. So now I'm sitting here typing this and i see the marriage certificate in the living room, with his signature on it. *sigh*. It's getting late, Kev will be home soon. Gonna go grab some ice cream and cheer up.